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Here to stay
.I'm not who I'm supposed be.
.
I recognize a lot of good things have remained
.
.Barely visible.
.
I don't recognize who I am
The good in me fades
I open my eyes and feel this life
My choices and my mind plagued
with suicide
.
.Identity problems.
.
Substance abuse
.the want to die.
.
Impulse has become a fix
I disappear for weeks
looking for trouble
.
.Alive in the night.
.
Peace comes in a bottle
..at war with my dreams..
.
. Detached .
.
Watching darkness becomes desire
Disconnecting from the normal ways of life
Becoming obsessive and unpredictable
Attracted to the experience others rarely learn
... Distant ...
... Unstable
Changing shape .... A different person ... Every day ...
..
Letting go of everything never seems to get old.
Blurry trying to live in this wake
destruction
I can't resist
...
Barely hanging on to life only lasts so long
The fire in my soul
Burns so hot...
.... Rage ...
Hate ...
.... Pain
Drips at a constant pace
I take moments to take it all in .
.. Tiny windows I use just to take a glimpse ..
Checking on my self ....
.... Making sure I know where I'm at ....
Taking account of where I've been ...
... What have I been doing ...
...
Taking notes trying not to lose my mind
My memory can be confusing
... Losing track of time ....
...
Years worth of escape ....
Wasted .....
.... Just to get away
My mental health
.... sometimes sharp as its ever been
Then there's other days ... I don't even know who the fuck I am.
.
Trying not to be psycho
Trying not to switch it up
I'm
Living like an animal
...
It doesn't have an end ....
I'll never have enough ......
.... I don't care about anything more than my own fail .....
I fucking hate myself enough
I created hell ....
In and out of cities I don't know
Careless ... Reckless ... .....
.
.Abandon.
.
.Sparking light to ride the rails.
Watch it burn before I leave .....
leave myself as I go
.... Addicted to crime
My habits for me ...
Escalating
I push my boundaries
Learning what I've always known
... ... .... I torture myself ...
To feel at home .....
It doesn't matter where I'm at ....
... All alone or in a crowd ....
I raise hell it until It spooks me out
Paranoid .... Guilty ....
... 15 different towns ....
Habitual... ... ....
.... Lost
...
I don't want to be anything ....
.. anyone ...
I like it in this void ... ...
Everything feels different when everything makes the same noise ..
....I'm giving up....
. .... The pilot...
.
I recognize a lot of good things have remained
.
.Barely visible.
.
I don't recognize who I am
The good in me fades
I open my eyes and feel this life
My choices and my mind plagued
with suicide
.
.Identity problems.
.
Substance abuse
.the want to die.
.
Impulse has become a fix
I disappear for weeks
looking for trouble
.
.Alive in the night.
.
Peace comes in a bottle
..at war with my dreams..
.
. Detached .
.
Watching darkness becomes desire
Disconnecting from the normal ways of life
Becoming obsessive and unpredictable
Attracted to the experience others rarely learn
... Distant ...
... Unstable
Changing shape .... A different person ... Every day ...
..
Letting go of everything never seems to get old.
Blurry trying to live in this wake
destruction
I can't resist
...
Barely hanging on to life only lasts so long
The fire in my soul
Burns so hot...
.... Rage ...
Hate ...
.... Pain
Drips at a constant pace
I take moments to take it all in .
.. Tiny windows I use just to take a glimpse ..
Checking on my self ....
.... Making sure I know where I'm at ....
Taking account of where I've been ...
... What have I been doing ...
...
Taking notes trying not to lose my mind
My memory can be confusing
... Losing track of time ....
...
Years worth of escape ....
Wasted .....
.... Just to get away
My mental health
.... sometimes sharp as its ever been
Then there's other days ... I don't even know who the fuck I am.
.
Trying not to be psycho
Trying not to switch it up
I'm
Living like an animal
...
It doesn't have an end ....
I'll never have enough ......
.... I don't care about anything more than my own fail .....
I fucking hate myself enough
I created hell ....
In and out of cities I don't know
Careless ... Reckless ... .....
.
.Abandon.
.
.Sparking light to ride the rails.
Watch it burn before I leave .....
leave myself as I go
.... Addicted to crime
My habits for me ...
Escalating
I push my boundaries
Learning what I've always known
... ... .... I torture myself ...
To feel at home .....
It doesn't matter where I'm at ....
... All alone or in a crowd ....
I raise hell it until It spooks me out
Paranoid .... Guilty ....
... 15 different towns ....
Habitual... ... ....
.... Lost
...
I don't want to be anything ....
.. anyone ...
I like it in this void ... ...
Everything feels different when everything makes the same noise ..
....I'm giving up....
. .... The pilot...
