At first
You shatter

Bt then you gather
-All the broken pieces
Mending...
Stitching...
Gluing...
With whatever hope you got
-That one day
It will all make sense
-That one day
You will heal again...
Be yourself...
Be whole...
And not a wounded soldier

So with hope
You start to heal
Make yourself believe
The storm will pass...
The wait will be over...
Just hold on a little more so...

Days pass
Nights and years
You let go of small things
Believing that you are growing
-It's a process of maturing
Ends up with letting go of the child in you
Who had all the energy
Enthusiasm...
Excitement...
Creativity...
Who was caring and loved unconditionally
Mattered tiny stuffs and was happy in it

Weeks goes
Months and years
You let go of wishes and wants
Thinking what is the meaning in them
-Can't fullfill those dreams anyway
Why even imagine such days that are long gone
Lost...
Myth...
Forbidden...
You become uninterested and souly dull
There are no demands to proceed
-Greed takes over
To get pleasure in any way available
Pretend...
Pursue...
Made up fantasy...
Just to wake up regularly
-Shaken up in reality
Crashed down by gravity
Hard...
Slapped...
Torned...

Time flys
You go stone cold
Nothing matters
The core that made you you
-Melts away
All the battles fought
Wasted.
Character, beliefs, faith
Changed.
Laughter, heart, kindness
-Washes down the drain
Isolated around the big walls

You lose
One by one
You see them go...
You make them go...
You have to let go...
Those shattered pieces
Getting lost somewhere
Killing them somehow
Banished cursed or quarantined

It kills you everytime
Each one goes
Cause it's part of you
Like limbs, eyes and brain
You can't function properly
Your world gets haywire
Disabled...
Handicapped...
A patient on bed...

Takes a toll on you
-Everytime
Emotionally...
Mentally...
Physically...
It's worse then dying
To see yourself loose
Bit by bit
And can't help
-To stop
-Or pause
Nobody noticed
Nobody knows
But you do
It's you who's loosing
It's you who's getting lost
It's you, you see yourself
Go.
Go
Go into darkness
Burning your soul before burning your flesh
Loosing yourself before loosing your life


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