He tells me that I shouldn't be the one to decide whether he lived or died,

That he himself is the Shepard of the Lord

Yet a servant to the devil himself

He says to not receive help from the government 

"Cause nothing is ever free!"

Or that the dogs told him things that MUST be true

Like how my mom and step dad are trying to kill him

Or the people out side trying to find him to kill him too

That it must be a setup and I'm the one making it happen

How scared his face looks as those thoughts tell him secrets of no truth

But I, just as scared for him 

Because the only person he should fear

Is to fear

himself...


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