She was the one,
Who took out the numb,
in me.

She made them run,
My demons gone,
I couldn't count to three.

She gave me something,
Something to believe in.

After so long,
I caught a breath,
It was so relieving.

My sleepless nights,
My fear of heights,
They said "We're leaving."

She was my one drug,
She could fix all my lows.

She gave me highs all the time,
Sometimes out of control.


She was the second chance,
I gave to the cupid.
He kicked my ass,
I'm torn apart,
Left feeling stupid.

I shut my eyes, reminisce
I was fine in the abyss
I remember back when life was a curse.
I forced myself to believe,
That she was perfect for me.

There I fell in love,
With the idea of her.

It takes,
One look in her eyes,
She could build,
Truth out of lies.

I was in love,
With the idea of her.

I was obsessed,
With the idea of her.



Lied to myself,
Ghosted all the warnings.
I knew what it was,
I was starting to fear the cold wind she was blowing....
Now that I realize
I wasn't ready for it
I take the blame
I tried to love the narcissist that she was.

I shut my eyes and I think,
She stabbed my soul, didn't flinch.
I miss back when I was a flightless bird.
I forced myself, took the leap.
She would catch, I believed.

I fell in love,
With the idea of her.

It takes,
One word in her voice.
She could turn,
hearts into toys.


I was in love,
With the idea of her.

I fell in love,
With the idea of her.

I open my eyes and I scream,
Saw what I hated to see.
I was better back when life was a blur
It was a mistake to believe,
That she was perfect for me.

I fell in love,
With the idea of her.
I fell in love,
With the idea of her.


© Karthik Chyawan