I know I got you pregnant
Everything seems stagnant
I ain't keeping my promises
Everything is heavy for and
It ain't healthy for both of you.

Am secretive and angry.
Seductive with words
You don't know what to believe.
You don't even know how
We'll raise the baby.

I put you under pressure
Stress you out chasing hoes.
Foes tryna hit on you to get back at me.
I ain't tryna play you but am caught
Up in the temptation of life.
The pleasures of life took me on voyage
I forgot about the treasures
That made me who I am.

I know I've failed being a dad,
Lover, and a friend.
I know I've hurt you a lot.
I ain't tryna rectify my mistakes
So you could testify that am good.
I've been highly intoxicated with alcohol.

I don't want to torn my child with lies.
I want her to be the better version of me.
I ain't ashamed about my brokenness
I've embraced it that's what make me unique.
I hope she'll find this thrilling.
I know I ain't a hero but wishing to be one.

By:Melvey koka(the surgical poet)
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Sonador the dreamer
03 April 2020
© Melvey koka