So I was staring out the window the other day, watching the rain fall. And every drop that hit that window pane, reminded me of every tear I've shed since we became, us.
Seeing you in that dress, standing at the altar. Waiting for me, looking like an angel. I couldnt hide the tears as they ran down my cheeks. And then days turned into months, months turned into years, these days we hardly speak. A lot of things have happened through all these weeks. A lot of broken promises and shattered dreams. I still remember the first time I caught you cheating. I was devastated, you made life so hard. With all the alcohol you drank, and those pills you would take. You were too blind to see how you were creating these scars on my heart. Damn near tore me apart..... piece by piece. But, you didnt care. You cheated and you lied over and over. You even tried to sleep with all of my friends. They tried to tell me, many times. But I was so in love with you, that i would always defend. I wanted to trust you. I couldnt figure out where I went wrong. I didnt know what to do. So I tried harder and harder to please you. Every so often I caught a glimpse of who you used to be. It was just enough to make me too blind to see. nothing had changed. I was loosing you....and I was loosing me. Allowing you to abuse me.
Until I had nothing left. Pieces of you in my heart, I kept. I often watched you sleep, and I wept. Listening to my tears hit the sheets. It was so hard for me to accept how you made me so incomplete. Heart full of defeat. I lost myself trying to find you. I traveled to the ends of the earth and back again. Looking for my love....looking for my best friend. I finally found you again. In the depths of hell where we first met. But it was too late for us to climb back out again. And my heart had grown too cold. So I chased you through hell for what seemed like an eternity. Just so I could make you taste your own medicine. Just so I could feed you my anger and misery. I had to teach you just what you did to me. Over and Over. And then I came to realize, the past was in the past. And no matter how much I hurt you, it wasnt going to make me feel any better. It only filled me with regret. And I wish that I could forget....how you destroyed me piece by piece. Killing me with precision. Causing this division. The ones who suffered the most were the kids.
We caused every scar on their...