Never burned myself like your cigarettes-
Never wanted to be your favorite ashtray
Naked insecurities- crawling insects!
Always believed in breathing in full
As if it was my last day to rule.
bitter colored past- you're so called upperclass craft;
Filled with everlasting poisonous contrast!
Into my veins you wanted to inject-
But I was never born to be tamed in a small circle,
I said fallen leaves never resurrect!
Then I started running into wilderness.
You were cursing loud!
Standing on a compilation of complicated questions!
From the acme of your dissatisfactions.
A deep sleep kept spreading its roots
In my eyeball's fertile landscape,
While you got more & more irritated
at my vacant window!
My green vivacity wanted an escape;
Through a icy frozen lake.

My bookshelf was bedridden in our last few weeks I guess,
No water or food or tablets,
Black letters and pale words were melting-
Creating a bloodless unfinished painting
That hung from one of my brain cells.
You never appreciated this
sophisticated illness- when my skin glowed in an unknown restlessness!
You never see my golden autumn,
"Dark winters that you can only grow"
You were far too impatient,
Cause you had your glittering dreams
controlling your legs hands & intentions.
Was tired from all those prolonged
vacuum we had in our latter conversations!

Then,I threw away your half dead cigarette,
Because I don't smoke!
You looked at your watch,"it's too late"
Your nonchalant tone whispered.
So,I went back in my cosy blackhole-
Keeping our stars for rotting in closet.
© Subhajit