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I'm really guilty of sparing other's feelings,
while I'm staring at ceilings,
every time my mind has been sent reeling.

I hide it down deep so it won't be discovered.
My pain can't be uncovered.
Though the stress can leave me feeling smothered.

Here and gone from each day on to the next.
I know that it's complex.
The lack of logic has me all perplexed.

I joke and smile hoping for a connection,
can't seem to find a direction,
that will quench my thirst for some affection.

Here it is, my soul, exposed to the masses.
It's held together with patches,
but I'll always rise up from the ashes.

So I keep going trying not to look back.
It's not as easy as that.
At least my mind has learned to patch the cracks.

I shared my heart because I thought you a treasure.
It wasn't only for pleasure.
I put my soul into my love endeavors

I had to set up boundaries to save myself.
Losing your love hasn't helped.
It added depth to all the hurt I felt.

It may have been rough but it looks like I'll make it.
My pain all seems to have faded,
and when I smile I will not have to fake it.



© The Moonlight Bard