In the quietest part of the night,
When you hover between dark and light,
Wondering if you can float away on dreams,
Hoping they won't turn into screams...
I hold my breath because am terrified so, yet so happy I want to float away.

Your figure is right there, I can see it and almost touch it but I know
oooh how I know so well that it isn't really you.
Am a fool to even dream that you would come,
You would never come for me.

I am unworthy,
dirty,
weak,
broken and
ugly.

I am unworthy because no one wants me, I know they don't.

I am dirty because I've been in the muck of it and no matter how much I clean up,........I stink.

I am weak, I couldn't even run away from my bad decisions, maybe if I was Strong I would have been able to get away.

Broken, I am broken, shattered even, I went and gave myself over to the wrong person's hands and I paid the price for it. they crushed me so hard.........I can't tell you the half it

I am ugly, they tell me I am and I believe them because they say it again and again and again and again till it sinks and becomes my identity.

👆🏾👆🏾👆🏾👆🏾That is what I think in my dark days.

I have less of those now, and am grateful
I am fearfully and wonderfully made, His work is wonderous(Psalms 139:14) Matthew 11:5
The blind receive their sight, and the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, and the poor have the gospel preached to them.
If He could do the above then He has made me clean.
The bad decisions I made I don't run away from, I don't even regret them because they built me. I learnt from them, I grew through them, I became strong because of them.
I am grateful for my failures for now I know ways not to go about things.
I am happy for betreyals because I now know who is for me.
I am happy and grateful for pain for it built my endurance.
He is the light of my life and He is always, I mean always, even right now, He is right here
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