My life is a sea of memories, that can actively take hold of me,
but today I'm cutting myself some slack, and just floating along through them on my back.
Just following the current's motion taking in this endless ocean,
of the factors that added up to the man I am from the time when all my thoughts began.

There are battles lost and battles won.
Hardships and trials and laughter and fun.
The worst ones, are of those I've lost, and the decisions I made with the highest cost.
The storms have subsided the thunder has quietened
seeing the whole of it makes me feel I'm enlightened,
to the paths I've taken and their consequences. I view them all without my defenses.

What's it all for now that I'm feeling so old? Once I wanted love now my heart grows cold
I don't have much left to offer another, so it's better my heart dwells in winter, Under covers.
I'm okay with all this. It doesn't hurt me anymore. I don't feel that it's hopeless like I always did before.

All those times that I thought I found someone meant for me up til now, but I don't think that's something I can believe
I know that my words sound like I'm wallowing in misery, but these building convictions are giving strength to me.
I'm just going to keep floating until I finally discover,
a place where my bad decisions won't make my loved ones suffer.


© The Moonlight Bard