With strong but silent insistence
You’ve resolved that we now become distant.
Of course, this is completely up to you
And I’ll try my best to be resilient.
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As you wish, I can stay away.
The thing is, though…
I really need to know that your OK.
I’ll always have that desire to know
Each moment of every day.
(My true torment- I’ll never let it show)
For you, I only want to take your pain away.
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My true feelings now to be restrained
I care about you immensely!
All romantic desires completely contained
(You’ll never know that I love you voraciously.)
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I know you have your own life to lead
So, optimize it and do what’s best in that regard.
With your perseverance, I know you’ll succeed
(But I so wish that you weren’t so very far.)
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I’m sure you have your reasons
And I’ll always respect that
With time, these wounds seem to only deepen
…With a devastating pain, never before matched.
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I just do not wish to do without you completely.
An everlasting impact you’ve made
I won’t use the phrase: you complete me
(Because that notion had already been clearly conveyed.)
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I don’t know if you understand what I’m going through.
It’s so damn difficult & I try to not let it show.
I don’t want to sadden you, so I’ll never let you know.
You have completely won me over just by ‘you being you’
And that makes it all the more difficult for me to just let go
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*New post- from old writing within my drafts. As it turns out, I had to ignore and let go of these feelings- for my health and to survive.