It doesn't seem fair or even possible that I could have you so strongly on my mind.
I am being held captive.
By you though, so it's fine.
l'lI take the aches and all of the tears.
Simply just to feel like you aren't still gone.
Like you're right back here.

With you, the world around us always felt irrelevant.
It was just you and I. Anywhere we went.
I remember your embrace more than I do your touch.
No matter how awful I felt.
Your hugs were always enough.
Your presence in the room is something I miss the most.
Now I sit here achingly, talking to your ghost.

I loved you from your head to your toes.
The gaps between your fingers, the little bump on your nose.
It's hard to love someone so intense.
Just to have them leave out of the blue.
I've not gotten good rest since.
The last time I did, I was sleeping next to you.
© Josh Thorn