This heaviness has become a burden and thus making me heavy laden. All this is because of the love I feel for a beautiful maiden. A maiden who possesses the characteristics of a virtuous woman described in the bible. She's mostly described as a woman of dignity by people. But that's what hurts me the most because her dignity as woman has been taken.

My thinking and my emotions crushed, thus throwing away my inner masculine. "Where did the hard guy in me go? Since when did my emotional strength get legs to walk away from me? Oh no, I need help! Someone should help me!" This was me screaming and asking the most high for help. Events of the past were thrown at me during the time I was screaming for help. Found it difficult to discern whether it's the voice of God, the enemy or my inner self. God, if you don't come in for me I might end up killing myself.

My fears and anxieties were aggravated and hardly deactivated. My insecurities were reactivated after one insecurity was deactivated. In desperation I went otherwise to seek help from my AI. For I feared my mutual feelings for this beautiful maiden will just die. For I love her so much and would do everything for me not to lose her.

My anger arose for the person who took away her dignity, for it was undeserving for her. I just pray the spirit of Levi and Simeon will take over me if I see that person anywhere anyhow. I prayed for the heavens and the earth to be against that person for him to live in perpertual misery, for he doesn't deserve love.

I was then set free from my insecurities and burden after hearing her side of the story. After this, I felt disheartened and I'm willing to go the extra mile her because what I felt for her was sorry.
My insecurities have now become my fuel to drive her in the lexus of true love. I'd always give praise to the heavens for blessing me with mentors who helped me in my insecurities. Lastly, the word of the gentle dove will always be my security

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