I cant understand

where to start

I know I need to quit

but I dont wanna quit

I tried to kill my demons

but they are to strong

I have no one to

understand

why does anyone not try to understand me

I gave them a gun loaded

but never killed me

but they tortured me

mentally

tried my best

but not enough

killed my feelings

but not enough

get happy if I don't wanna

they...