Honor Bound

I am Honor Bound
I have the ability to be
Tied with nothing binding me.
I am restrained without any restraints.
Chained by invisible chains.
Held here complacently.
With your words you bind me.
Telling me to stay as if you have tied me.
There are no ropes to be seen
Nothing tethered to me.
What is keeping me?
Holding and preventing
Any attempts at leaving.
Could it be that
I have never been free?
Holding onto the love that used to be
Living in my memories
Escaping my reality
I automatically stay where you have put me.
My place has always been beneath.
It is so demeaning
Yet I remain, unwavering
My trust in you was so complete
I continued blindly
Unseeing
Of everything that was damaging
Until broken defined me
Now I stand unmoving
The ties still keeping me
From completely seeing.
The damages you have done to me.
Ruining the best parts of me
But now I am awake
And now I am seeing
These invisible chains that have kept me
Honor bound
Against everything
That is screaming
Inside of me
Needing to be freed
From these invisible bindings
From the promises I vowed
From the love that knew no bounds
Until the monster came around
God nowhere to be found
I feel sanity escaping
Leaving...