Reminiscing the past, days when I could smile and laugh,
Staring at the dark black sky that refused to show its stars,
Gazing at the bold circular horizon many miles away,
The flawless black sky was just like my scars,
The impatient swaying of branches of the trees like my weary heart,
The igniting fire of hope surrendering to the wallowing pain,
In the majestic portion of my heart pain sat,
My shredded soul reincarnates into its life of stains,
How I wish for another chance to stop the scintillating pain of my heart,
And a new day to cover the battles of my past,
How I wish my memories can be wiped & renewed so I can begin a new life on earth,
And my ugly past can be waved away like dust,
Because my past feels like fire burning around my caged being,
How I wish I could live away from it,
And start everything anew, all over again,
How I hope to smile & laugh again,
Like I'd never shed a tear before,
How I wish my wings could be freed,
So I can fly higher than the eagles,
How I wish to find and decode the password that can unlock my caged being,
I feel so empty like there's nothing more to live for,
Like I'm just nothing like it's all over,
The void in me, huge and wide,
The pain attached, immense and large,
How I wish I could fill it with some glitters of life and hope,
So I can feel the thrill of rising again,
To keep moving and to keep living
Because silently within,
I'm dying alone in silence...

© hujjah