small mistake can ruin the whole part of a person who build herself in a long process from trauma
she experiencing in her whole life,
my whole life has been a lie,

little they know how dark my mind is,
the feelings that I don't wanna keep
how my eyes wants to cry
the punches i gave to myself

the whisper every night
(I'm fucking really tired)
in every decision there's always hesitation
but why i always feel this feelings

heavy it feels,ready to burst
lay awake at night,staring in the ceiling
trying to shut up the voices in my head
they're screaming and I fear if they get any louder

how did things end that way
when it was like yesterday
i could hear the tears like a river
until I can't sleep