Am aware it will be very hard, but As of today, I will try to put a full stop to over caring for any one (most especially Ladies) who had failed me many times. there will be no more 24/7 call, no too much consideration, everyone will be treated equally either male or female.
If you don't look for me, sorry I won't. I have being fooled and a fool, I think am done being a fool to anyone. Since a nice, caring, considerable and kind person is not whom you all are seeking for then I will just hid all those to myself alone while treating everyone formally.
"I thought boarding the right cab to the right destination is safer and better", but I was totally wrong. Maybe I will consider this Italian quotes which says, "Many times the wrong train took me to the right place" if it would rather work in my own case.
I thought caring and showing absolute Love towards whosoever you dote on is necessary, however, I tends to figure out that it doesn't taste nice in the mouth of every entity despite the nature of it.
Sincerely, I don't regret having those experiences because in the sense of Philosophy, "Experience brings out knowledge". However, I feel so bad never been Loved out of Nature not even for an hour.
Am aware am not to compare myself with others who gets the opposite side but it is just so unfair. I think it is the right thing to do, it is the right feeling to feel.
You know, sometimes I just can't stop asking myself this questions, "is it hard to grant happiness to someone?". because it is so true that the only request I have made from people that cross my path is for them to make me "Happy", but it that has been so hard to get that granted.
well, I will pass through the ocean no matter how hard it tries to scare me.. certainly, I will conquer..
But you know what, I'm just being relief with these words,

"You're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry. ~J.D. Salinger

Note that "every Experience in life brings about Knowledge" and that knowledge is what will serve as a guide to the young ones that are coming behind and even to those who have lost hope.
That record is what am into now, so that it will pass the the next generation and stand as an instrument used in building the ladder to their greatest heights.
It is also Pertinent to note that success or elevation is not just for the week but for the strong. Now listen, what makes you a beautiful or Successful man or woman is not just your Looks or Achievement but your ability to persevere through hardship you encounter in the process of your attenment.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen. ~Elisabeth Kübler Ross

This words need fresh air and sunshine to germinate a gorgeous blossom.
These words are the secret to climbing the highest top and also a book of record and a book of knowledge.

© Aniedi Victor David