Am aware it will be very hard, but As of today, I will try to put a full stop to over caring for any one (most especially Ladies) who had failed me many times. there will be no more 24/7 call, no too much consideration, everyone will be treated equally either male or female.
If you don't look for me, sorry I won't. I have being fooled and a fool, I think am done being a fool to anyone. Since a nice, caring, considerable and kind person is not whom you all are seeking for then I will just hid all those to myself alone while treating everyone formally.
"I thought boarding the right cab to the right destination is safer and better", but I was totally wrong. Maybe I will consider this Italian quotes which says, "Many times the wrong train took me to the right place" if it would rather work in my own case.
I thought caring and showing absolute Love towards whosoever you dote on is necessary, however, I tends to figure out that it doesn't taste nice in the mouth of every entity despite the nature of it.
Sincerely, I don't regret having those experiences because in the sense of Philosophy, "Experience brings out knowledge". However, I feel so bad never been Loved out of Nature not even for an hour.
Am aware am not to compare myself with others who gets the opposite side but it is just so unfair. I think it is the right thing to do, it is the right feeling to feel.
You know, sometimes I just can't stop asking...