For some reason I always feel the need to explain to you my feelings, an explanation of my absence.
For one I get the feeling of disappointment from you that I'm not what you want me to be.
I'm sorry if that is the case but I don't want to be some
selfmade word slinging, sassy trash talking woman
that everybody's attraction.
I have never been nor have I ever been attracted to that sort of a person. As I pay attention to my life and life in general it's less and less attractive to me.
The uselessness of all the petty word slinging starts endless petty fights and killing more...