365 days, and a few months
I am now sitting in rented room,a hundred miles apart
I never thought Im actually writing on a pad
This isn't me, but hey its been a while.

No feelings, no dramas
This is what you want,for me to be goner
Damn, they do believe I dont care
Always the strong gal, of getting the hell outta here.

365 days, and a few months
If they only knew, what I have done
Sailing a ship to save the pride
I manage to escapethe distance, not the broken heart


I didn't talk, I didn't complain
I hid the feelings, drown out the pain
Its not like I had a choice
But I did that to free us both.

I am your anchor, but I think you weren't my ship
I let you hold to me, but it's you who let me slip
Now you're free from my grasp, but I drowned in the process.

365 days and a few months
I didn't even blink when I said "it's okay, I dont mind"
Not because it really is okay
But its the right thing I gotta say.

I fake the feelings, to let u feel better
I manage a laugh, for u not to be awkward
I agree to being friends, to let u in peace
I sailed away, for u to be free.

I hated myself on the process of embracing you Thinking how can I be me again
Sitting on this two storey window
All by myself nowhere to go

Live past 730 days and 2 months
The world was cruel, when it didn't give me a chance
I needed to heal but it was so unfair
For you rubbed a salt on a wound unhealed.

February 25, 2020
I finally manage to express this feelings inside me
I'm writing not to let you know, but to help myself see what is not worthy
I guess this is my last ink, my last look and the last pain
No more baggages for me on my journey ahead

I don't wanna thank you this time
For the last time it put you on the pedestal
But I do wanna say goodbye
Not for you, being gone for a long time
But for the untold feelings
I will leave behind.
© she_writes
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