I refuse to continue your performance.
and then the thought drifted into my head
why be sad if you can be gone
and how did that feel
it felt like nothing
the surrender was merely a gradual comeuppance
and the white flag roused no emotion in me
my body had accepted what my mind knew long was the truth
to escape this horror i must escape you
the living - they were never made for me
I'd rather be silent in my grave than glassy eyed weeping on their stage
and so with the thought the dominos fell
i was no longer chequered, i was a story not even a blind person could tell
i resided in the darkness, it was as if i was never here
and how did that feel
it felt like everything.
© Judith Mallya
why be sad if you can be gone
and how did that feel
it felt like nothing
the surrender was merely a gradual comeuppance
and the white flag roused no emotion in me
my body had accepted what my mind knew long was the truth
to escape this horror i must escape you
the living - they were never made for me
I'd rather be silent in my grave than glassy eyed weeping on their stage
and so with the thought the dominos fell
i was no longer chequered, i was a story not even a blind person could tell
i resided in the darkness, it was as if i was never here
and how did that feel
it felt like everything.
© Judith Mallya