watch the pebbles circle round my shoes
clouds above must be really confused
as they stare at me, eyebrow raised, tilted head, wonder what i’m doing here again
i don’t know even why i’m here again?

i suppose they get a birds eye view
of my discomfort as i remember the truth
i’m going to that station, getting on that train and going in the same exact direction
as i always do

can someone tell me why i’m right here again?
can someone tell me why the sky is clear again?
i’ve lost my sense of self, and i’m losing track of time
i’ve been listing all the reasons why

i miss the possibilities
i miss the never knowing what’s in front of me
i miss the window-staring
watching the grass turn into blurs of green
now i know what’s coming and i know what i’m in for
no longer the deep end, swimming in the same pool
no call of adventure, just glimmers of hope and
pretending tomorrow i’ll be in a new land

i know that’s it’s pointless, wishing for more
but i don’t want it to be the same,
as it was before
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