Broken under the weight of my sins
F*** the remedy
What is my punishment?

Forgiveness in the form most-loathed
The SELF
The face staring back at me, begging me to give in

That taste in my mouth...
That breath in my lungs...
That life surging red-hot through and through

Pushing past the limits of a body,
A spirit takes flight
Elevated beyond the atmosphere
Straight to heaven...

Straight to hell.

Smoke suffocating the cells,
Consuming the ecstasy
Leaving me blind and starving

Pain comes without effort,
Deserved but unwanted...
And I am terrified
Of leaving you alone in the dark

F*** this punishment.
I need the remedy.

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