Tell me

What is it like?
When all you feel is just ache?
When you are breathing, but just for its sake
When you are forced to smile, no matter how fake
When you spend nights figuring out your mistake

How does it feel?
When you try to weep, but your tears are dry.
When your entire life just seems like a lie.
When the sky is bright, but you're too tired to fly.
When you wish you were dead, but don't know why.

Doesn't it hurt?
When you look at the mirror, and all you feel is shame.
When life seems like a long lost game.
When you look back in time, and wish it were all same.
When you close your eyes, and realise you're the only one to blame.

Is it over?
When you failed people who called you strong?
When you cannot go back to where you belong?
When life seems like one long sad song?
When the wait for death has been too long?

Tell me

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know it's all a show?
When you feel like you've hit your all-time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
What do you call it
When the wait to die seems too long?


© Sagnik