She knew that I loved her.
But now I don't know.
Listening to"what if"
by Tokio Hotel:
"What if I would love you till the end, so you'd never
have to be alone again"

Wish this line would be about us.
But it isn't.
You could have been my Queen,
My Princess,My everything.
And you denied it.
Twice.
I'm afraid there'll be a third one.

If I keep on being so naive,
Then probably.
I want to hate her.
But that thought is suffocating me.
I want to dronw my feelings in
her blood.

I changed it.
From mine to your's.
I want revenge again.
I want to burn my memories of her.
I want to kill them all.
I want to kill everything I feel.

Everything about her.
Anything that ever belonged to her.
I can't keep on doing this.

I can't just come here and
write my feelings down,
Then in the night send
them to her.

I can't.
I am going to go crazy with
these thoughts.
But you know what?
This is enough.
I'm done for today.

© Tortise