it came again unannounced
this time in the middle of the night unnoticed
left my thoughts wide awake
the uncontrolled surge began as before

“please I want to leave this buried” I said
but it’s subtle laugh sends a shiver down my spine
this voice i so much abhor
voice I thought had bade me farewell

it persisted, injecting thoughts to my head
“Please I don’t wanna go down this lane again”
“these bones I chose to bury, don’t dig up”
“I have convalesced, please don’t make me relapse”

all these years I have sorted my sanity
self-purged my thoughts and emotions
took me years of constancy to get to this
now you’re back to yank off my little sanity

please don’t make me go back to this darkness
she who made me this has already moved on
I’m nothing but a ticking timed bomb
this rush of blood will be the end of me someday

@talk2leigh
5:08am
10 Aug 2024
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