all this to calm a hysterical baby-
hysterical baby who is afraid of losing the one thing he loves
though you didn't have to lie to me.
i was scared, and your lies only confirm the one thing I feared.
you don't love me like you say, and i know now.
you thought you were helping but only caused me more harm than the truth before this
now I'm all over the place, thinking too much all because you lied to me.
you told me you loved me when you didn't, and now I don't know where to go
completely distraught as i cry for you
these tears of mine you don't deserve, but like everything else, I give them to you.
free- they cost nothing- nothing from you
but to give you these, I lose everything.
I give you my all, and this is what I get- a racing mind that will all but lose in the end, thoughts of never being good enough because I know i never was, and a broken heart that was never really complete in the first place.
I mourn your loss, yet you don't deserve that. you do not deserve my mourning for you, yet I still do, and I haven't a clue how to stop.