because.. I was set out into the world to live with scarecrow women with satirical appetites toward
domination: man substitute as child to be
guided.
or
I met great bodies of women
who felt that betrayal was their side-card
just for kicks
and
suck on that or find another
body.
or
I met women with minds
and along with this came a rather kind of
kindness
but their friends were just like they:
they talked away their nights upon world-
betterment
but somehow all their love seemed outside of
them
and they appeared dull white and
clinging to needed formula
and they became quite pissed-upset by anybody
who might say something
improper
unholy
maybe interesting
or even maybe
dull.
this was not
allowed.
so
knowing this
I always arranged myself to say something
not only dumb
but something very
dumb
like: "you mean, blacks shit too?"

something of that manner always
worked, and speaking of specifics
I knew more about blacks than any of
them
for I had fought and positioned with them
for the worst jobs in that city
or
more specifically: many
cities.

I always had problems with white
intellectual bitches in
high-tone executive positions
and the parties at their places
and even though they knew I was going to fuck-
up
they chanced it because they believed that all
I needed was proper training
a chance to be guided by their light.

I do believe what bothered me most
was the absolute comfort of their...