The silence in my head and heart
is something that isn't fixable
the pain my heart feels
is because I loved you
I do not understand why people disrespect others so much when they don't deserve it

you are on the vurge of lossing my spirit my love my laughter my voice my being
I have tried to fight for as much as I can for as long as I can but you don't give the same effort ever so do u really care if I stay

I have no more tears to shed cause I've done wasted them all on your bullshit nonsense
do you see my worth like I do
do u understand the pain and fear and insecurities you've caused

my heart is on lock down and I'm not sure if I will feel the same for u as I once did
but the difference between us is I try and you don't even make attempts

maybe your right when u asked what the point of us being together was because I don't know at this point

the point for me was cause I loved and cared for u and would of taken any bullshit for you but not from you at this point now in our relationship or whatever you call it or whatever we have or had I must sit back and be shut in my own shell to maintain whatever this is because either I leave or you man up and actually be with only me and stop seeking the wrong attention from others

© mazie420