I know I've never talked,
but don't take it the wrong way.
I'm not rude.
Not remorseful.
Not shy.
I just have Selective Mutism.
I have social anxiety, the
anxiety on which I have trouble talking to people.
My family members.
My teachers.
Even my so call friends.
I'm embarrassed about what they might
think of me.
I'm uncomfortable making eye contact,
I'm always left out in school projects.
I hate big crowds it makes me anxious and I can't breathe through the pit in my stomach.
And the thing I hate
is that the students at my school
never helped me.
They always say 'Why don't you talk?'
But, when I do talk,
they only like me because of my voice
and not for the real me.
I just feel lonely and sad and depressed.
And it hurts.

But, now the only thing that makes me talkative is my writing. That's why I wanna be a writer when I grow up, not just to spread my story but to help everyone.


© Breanna Holton