if you asked me whenever I felt anxious about who I wanted, I'd say HER, she was stoic and calm but now I'm losing it.

I thought she was me, a part of me I haven't discovered but now it seems she's someone else inside of me.

she shows up at random times and she's not there when I need her to cope with my anxieties, the doctor said it's all part of the sickness, but who's she?

At times I forget she's real, and at times I forget that she even showed up but my brother asks me who I am, it's crazy when he asks that.

she helps me sometimes but then I want her to go away because she's emotionless, I hate and love her and when I stare at the mirror, at times I see her, a girl with stoic eyes.

She's not me but who would believe it?, everyone's gonna think I'm crazy lol, she wants complete dominance, I'm watching movies to distract myself but now I'm losing touch with reality.
©Freya Stone