#TranscendingGrief

It touches home,
And leaves us all alone,
Strips us bare,
It hurts so much that it can't compare.

23 January 2023

I lost someone I called home-girl, my A team, and a woman who started a legacy.

I felt it,
My heart breaking and the deep wails that followed right after. The pain was incomparable to anything I've ever felt.

Denial, anger, happiness, and grief all made my heart more heavier and it was unbearable.

The water they gave me I wanted to throw it across the room, remind me to never do that to someone is.

My strength was and still is God.

The only reason I made it out of that funeral without daunting was that I told my Father in heaven that my little heart can't take the pain.

The pain is still there,
I feel empty at times,
When I do big things and small things,
I want her to see it and she isn't there anymore, and that hurts.

It can never be replaced by anyone, not even the memories I've shared with her are a replica of who she was.

That's how much she is still missed,
Still loved, still appreciated,
Still adored.

Our hearts still ache for her when we remember that she isn't home anymore, my heart still aches.

So what changed?

Everything.

Everything changed and although she is in a better place, I kinda wish at times that her better place, was at home, with us

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