A lifetime of heartache and pain I've faced
so many years of me feeling like a disgrace
an abusive ex girlfriend who caused me pain
I wasn't allowed to feel any sorts of shame.
I remember the times I saw my mother cry
those years when the truth became a lie
it took me a long time to finally find a way
even though it cost me my happiness today.
Those times you watched him beat me bad
you looked at me and I looked at you so sad
my first ex girlfriend used to beat me too
to the point where I looked black and blue.
A lifetime of abuse and unhappiness I saw
those days where the truth looked so raw
my heart was breaking slowly as I was weak
I got stronger and now I'm ready to speak.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire