What if the last time you kissed my lips turns out to be,

The very last kiss u ever give to me?

Would you remember every detail?

Or would the thought be fleeting?

What if our souls refused to unwind?

Would our hearts stop beating?

Can you believe we are no longer one?

It's hardest to fathom that it is I who is done.

Somehow I hope we will remain great friends,

Although it feels doubtful out here near the edge.

We have given love one hell of a chance

Sadly it will be mine and loves last dance.

I hope you meet your soulmate

I thought I was it, but it wasnt our fate

You were most likely the love of my life

And for what it's worth,

I enjoyed being your wife.

Sorrow clutches my throat as I tell you goodbye

If I say I don't miss you then know it's a lie,

You have been everything to me, my family, and my muse.

Now there is simply nothing to fight for.

We have nothing to lose.

Move on from here please don't look back

You didnt love me.

I wonder what it is that I must lack.

I suppose alot of mistakes were made by me,

I cant make it better now except setting u free.

I want you to know I am grateful for all the times we laughed

Those times unfortunately don't ever last.

Don't forget these words once you walk away

Because I love you is so fucking hard to say.

Heidi Shavill

2017