Why do you hate yourself every time you look in the mirror?
The answer to that question never gets any clearer!

Where do these feelings really come from?
Sometimes to everything you wish you could just become so numb!
But then what kind of person will you become?

Feels like inside your head how you feel and what you wish to say the words are mum!
Often you feel like you’re so stupid and so dumb!
It is said that you win and lose some!

What if this is a battle that you can’t win?
You’ve become so lost that you hate who you are within!
so ready to give up that feeling is just beneath the skin!

It’s harder than people think to not let those thoughts in!
Everyone just continues to tell you everything will be all right but you would love to know when!
Slowly your all the happiness that you once felt is growing thin!

You wish that you could feel whole once again!
Where to start you don’t know where to begin!
you start to wonder where your fragile mind has been!

You’re in search of who you used to be!
A future for you that you just don’t see!
You wish inside that you’d stop hurting wish you could finally be free!

It’s hard to admit your pain inside to some degree!
Being okay isn’t always a guarantee!
Would things be better if you decided to flee?

How you feel your mind may disagree!
You’d rather be gone away for good praying and may even beg and plea!
Battling these demons constantly isn’t something you could ever foresee!

You don’t control your every thought they control you!
You don’t know at all if you’ll make it through!
Every thought inside is but only blue!

Feels like you’re being split right in two!
Struggling to remember what it’s like to feel happy anymore a feeling so true!
You wish you could feel happy again a journey you’d love to pursue!

Why you always feel like this you haven’t a clue!
Are these feelings and thoughts you always have taboo?
Is everything you think and feel lies that are untrue?
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