Whom to blame now
I look around found no one
Maybe it's because
I am drowning because of myself

Or maybe that's what I always do
I blame others as an excuse
I run from everything
What hurts me or I can't handle

Maybe I know I am weak
And I can't do the things
So I blame others

I really don't interact
much with others
I am afraid if I will not be like them
so pepole will push me
so before them pushing , I push them
and stay alone always

Asked myself what is killing me
honest answer my heart gave is
I never feeled enough love
there is some emptiness inside

It was not really always
like how I seem to be today
I was that bubbly talkative
extrovert girl who don't
give a fuck about anyone

But this world makes
13 year old girl to feel
it's wrong to talk to much
wrong to be so friendly
not safe for us
some boy abused me
when I was so innocent to
know what does...