one glance and you will think I'm perfect
talk to me and you will think I'm flawless
very clean like the shirts in your closet
you will think I'm not arrogant and reckless



do you know the real me?
what's hidden inside my heart?
what's trapped in my brain?
do you Know I can explode like a gas?
do you Know my emotions keep changing?
it bad effect keeping pouring on me like a rain


You said you love
You told me to trust you
"Jennifer, pour your heart out, I will listen"
You said you won't give up
But you just told me to change
To fight the urge to smash things
the urge to avoid you when I deal with these things
You said you don't like how I deal with these
I shouldn't let it affect what we have


But Hey! do you know these knows know boundaries
the more I fight it the more it gains control
my thought is not so merciful
it keeps racng rapidly
it keeps inviting anxiety all the time
the fear is stronger than my love
but I thought you understand
thoughts is more deeper than my feelings
I can't control it my love
I keep fighting it to be the girl you want
but the real me always marks it authority