When he told me that we should break up,I took it as one of his jokes,
Our love was still too young for us to leave each other,
it was a serious joke I must say,
days and weeks passed without hearing a word from him,
so i decided to text him myself just to check up on him and know if he was doing okay,
just to get a reply that just let it go,you deserve better,
I tried to make him explain to me why he had made such a decision too soon,
we were still taking our baby steps and I was never in a rush because I knew our love was to last,
I tried to convince him that it would work out between us but he still decided that we should part ways.

I texted him after a week to see if he had changed his mind about us but no,
I cried myself to sleep for weeks,
waking up with swollen eyes,
I did not know how to start forgeting him,
it was so hard for me,I couldn't have taken it,
in other people's eyes I looked okay but I was dying inside,
Everytime my phone popped I just wished that it was a text from him only to find other notifications,
just a thought of him made me so weak,
I completely lost myself that i could not focus on anything,not even my studies

Forgetting him was a real struggle for me,
I couldn't believe that I'd never talk to him again,see him again or have anything to do with him ever again,
I had to convince my mind and my heart to just let go,
that is where my healing process began,
I started picking up myself back again,
forcing myself to forget that was ever us and just move on,
it was not that easy,but I had to for my own peace of mind,it was a bad chapter in my life that really taught me alot,
you can never force someone to stay in your life
© Twinkle