I finally found him again
Have him right in my reach,
But now I can’t decide
If it’s the right thing I need
The opportunity is right there
Sitting infront of me,
But I can’t make the choice
Both seem wrong,
Yet both seem right

I’ve thought about this for years
Every single night,
But still
I have lost energy to fight
Motivation is hard to use
When I know it might end in another bruise,
But I don’t want to miss out over an excuse

I’m staring at my dreams
Everything I’ve ever wanted
Right infront of me,
But here comes back my crippling anxiety
Trying to pull me further away,
And I’m trying to stand my ground,
But I feel the opportunity fade
I don’t want to lose this again

I can’t keep him waiting

I can’t keep him

I can’t just start over
There’s no way we can just get closer
I’m losing composer
Trying to keep everything together
I thought it would get better

I just focus on my breathing,
But my heart’s still
Beating
Bleeding
Screaming
For him

Should I try
again
Break
again
Fail
again
It would kill me if I let it end
again
Love
again
I hate how this has happened

I’m dying all over again

© Clo_Belle