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Nothing and Everything
Most of my life they called me lazy
And though my memories are quite hazy
I'm certain that I wasn't always this tired
Rest wasn't the only thing I desired
Somewhere in my life everything changed
I looked in the mirror and I felt estranged
Nothing was different but nothing felt the same
Suddenly the very essence of myself felt ashamed
I hate myself, for reasons I have yet to figure out
My head is full of self-inflicted insults and doubt
But I can't recall when the pain started
When did I start feeling this fainthearted?
It's like all my motivation vanished into thin air
They want me to try but I'm losing reasons to care
Some days I want to lay awake and do nothing
Other days I just want to sleep and dream of something
It's straight up chaos inside my mind
My feelings are getting harder to find
They say I shouldn't worry, it'll all be alright
But everything feels blurry, nothing feels right
04/07/2021
© Sam T. Parker
And though my memories are quite hazy
I'm certain that I wasn't always this tired
Rest wasn't the only thing I desired
Somewhere in my life everything changed
I looked in the mirror and I felt estranged
Nothing was different but nothing felt the same
Suddenly the very essence of myself felt ashamed
I hate myself, for reasons I have yet to figure out
My head is full of self-inflicted insults and doubt
But I can't recall when the pain started
When did I start feeling this fainthearted?
It's like all my motivation vanished into thin air
They want me to try but I'm losing reasons to care
Some days I want to lay awake and do nothing
Other days I just want to sleep and dream of something
It's straight up chaos inside my mind
My feelings are getting harder to find
They say I shouldn't worry, it'll all be alright
But everything feels blurry, nothing feels right
04/07/2021
© Sam T. Parker
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