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my death wish-
Pick a poison any poison, fentanyl be the best choice to kill yourself just like that. To numb away from the pain of all the hurt of being suffocated and overdose till you fade away.
Nothing to remember you by no alibi or obituaries in the news today. Today is the day I make my death wish. I don't wanna live I fucked up so bad no one wants me around anyways ; since I can't be happy might as well die, and suffer and wither away from all the pain inside. In of the suffocating I don't want to live, I'll drink myself away become an alcoholic and drink like there's no tomorrow; let the silence make me feel numb and die under the light of day there's no way I'll stay. The darkness is all I see no sunshine on this rainy cloudy day it's a nightmare I know. It shouldn't be so true but I feel more than blue, black is more like it nothing but darkness above the rest nothing but blood that I bleed out through my tears, I can't bare the day so I'll dose away. I hope, I never wake up...for this life is not to be happy about. I have to live with myself and what I've had done I can't let it be undone. For now I suffer and maybe I'll OD to you.It never seemed to be, I thought I could win this ongoing battle of depressional war throughout the years and I never won the battle is over I lost the war of the of my life say goodbye and goodnight; for I hope I never ever wake up for my life is nothing but a near nightmare full of threatful terrors. I can't open my eyes and see the monster inside my life. For you I'll die. Everyone else ever hated me anyways. For now I'll lay down for my internal sleep as I slumber away I see a light from above as the world was never meant for me. So I can't live in this world so I went to my grave and said rest in peace and said good bye to everyone I ever loved who is still alive, and trust me I will be okay...there among family members and loved friends. I belong here so let me rest for I will never hurt again. From any pain at all ever again, but I know that I'll be happier here instead of living the life I live today, alone in my grave I shall stay.
Nothing to remember you by no alibi or obituaries in the news today. Today is the day I make my death wish. I don't wanna live I fucked up so bad no one wants me around anyways ; since I can't be happy might as well die, and suffer and wither away from all the pain inside. In of the suffocating I don't want to live, I'll drink myself away become an alcoholic and drink like there's no tomorrow; let the silence make me feel numb and die under the light of day there's no way I'll stay. The darkness is all I see no sunshine on this rainy cloudy day it's a nightmare I know. It shouldn't be so true but I feel more than blue, black is more like it nothing but darkness above the rest nothing but blood that I bleed out through my tears, I can't bare the day so I'll dose away. I hope, I never wake up...for this life is not to be happy about. I have to live with myself and what I've had done I can't let it be undone. For now I suffer and maybe I'll OD to you.It never seemed to be, I thought I could win this ongoing battle of depressional war throughout the years and I never won the battle is over I lost the war of the of my life say goodbye and goodnight; for I hope I never ever wake up for my life is nothing but a near nightmare full of threatful terrors. I can't open my eyes and see the monster inside my life. For you I'll die. Everyone else ever hated me anyways. For now I'll lay down for my internal sleep as I slumber away I see a light from above as the world was never meant for me. So I can't live in this world so I went to my grave and said rest in peace and said good bye to everyone I ever loved who is still alive, and trust me I will be okay...there among family members and loved friends. I belong here so let me rest for I will never hurt again. From any pain at all ever again, but I know that I'll be happier here instead of living the life I live today, alone in my grave I shall stay.
