Anxiety reaping over me.
Taking over me like a disease.
Humans are not understanding,
They are quick to dismiss me.
They are quick to disregard me.
Everyone is walking around like robots.
Maybe they are escaping this world.
Which is like a fantasy.
They seem to have it better.
But is living in delusion better
Then being awakened.
The smile ripped off my face,
Just by making all these people happy,
Who don’t even care about me.
I see them all judging me,
Hating on me.
Yet they don’t even know me.
This is the cruel world we live in.
Why do I even care about people pleasing,
Maybe I have a good heart,
That’s what it is.
Maybe I’ve made some changes,
And helped many,
But I still feel disoriented,
And disconnected.
Reaping in sorrow.
I bleed in silence,
Numb from my tears.
This world is slowly breaking me,
Overtaking me.
Nothing ever seems real anymore.
Many of these people,
Are also quit unsure.
If I do too much,
This world will corrupt me,
And lead me astray,
In the darkness and shadows,
That lurk behind me.
You see, I’ve always wanted to make people happy.
And make a change in this cold bitter world.
This horrible society.
I feel too much,
And give too much,
And that’s why my heart aches,
And it hurts.
They want to see who I am,
And then continue to judge me.
Who knows,
Maybe someday it will be better.
And I will bed happier.

© WarriorWithin