The smile on my face is nothing but a makeup
They say I'm selfish because I don't open up
They don't get it,I'm already dead inside
What's left is me in the pool of my own blood
It's frustrating but I can't help myself
I can't help but to lie to protect the ones I love
It hurts when I see them cry
Twice as much when I'm the reason why
So I conceal my emotions as they matter less
When I hold them,I know they deserve the best
But what I offer is the worst
I think it's time for me to let you go
Out of my grasp of pain and into the ground of hopes
But I've also heard that this ground is full of wolves
A man with beard who rip trees off ground with their roots
I'm afraid to lose you but I can't have you
And again I need you I don't want you
I can see in your eyes you're in pain
We are in love but to you I still remain
A mystery,it's hard to expose my feelings as I'm afraid
To be the one that will break your heart
I know I said that together,forever we'll stay
But today I have to be the one that says goodbye
At this moment that's when I wish a miracle could happen and blind my eyes
As I will always be hating this day
As I do now for all of this words
I have wrote on this soaked piece of paper
Sniffing,wiping through every page
Pondering and flipping my empty heart to express what it feels
Tranquil,serenely,a blow of wind into an empty space
Exactly, nothing but sadness and pain

© ANGELIC K.O.S