Yeh. You didn't understand...but I did fall so deeply in love with you. I couldn't go a day without your messages. Sometimes, I did take a long halt on my social life just so that I could get a call from you; just that single hello was enough to let me feel I mattered. Even though I never spoke out verbally, I fell for you. I didn't want to look stupid, so I canceled the emotions. I acted alright; when you told me to act; I did. I was going to, but you had it under control. You had it all figured out. I tested how much I mattered when I mentioned another, and you gave the okay. Yeh.
Yeh. I was hoping you'll tell me not to. I mean I was hoping I could detect that single no sign; you didn't even visualize it. It was all a go signal. Even friends kept asking how I managed to just wipe out the ink on that blank page; I didn't. I just had to put some tears on that one page...the words couldn't be anymore clearer; I couldn't even notice I wrote something; good; bad? I asked questions, was I ever a matter? But if I were a matter, why the slow poison dished to me? I waited. I hoped. I didn't see light; I saw the red.
Yeh. I wanted to be seen, even within the universe. I wanted the memories to fix themselves rightly. I was a puzzle, you didn't bother to attach the last piece. You left the hole. Incomplete, I sourced, I felt. I still wish I had what I didn't really own.
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