I fucked with the Matrix,
so got labelled as a narcissist
tried to get all the shit be sorted
only to walk into an illusion that my physical body never really existed
yeah !! I'm fed up of all that depersonalisation shit
to the extent that once upon a time this made my rationality take an irreversible hit
until I realised world's never gonna fuck with my ideas until I admit
that I had been in a world of my own making
and all the drama that I had been putting up was just a reflection of the persona that I was faking...

could never come to terms with the fact that
all that I beleived was true as fuck
turned out to be actually something that was almost permanently stuck
in form of some memories that my subconscious implanted to ensure my insane mind's survival
in that goddamned abusive household which often made me feel like some useless rascal
I can't single out a single factor that actually led up to that mess
all I know is the only way out of this to just forget everything and address
the larger issues which this world perceives as practical problems
rather than being immersed in something which the world perceives as some paradoxical jargons !!


© @unshakableabhishek