I don't merely tolerate you

No time I'd waste or lose

Trying to hate you

I don't know what you went through

Stop acting like I don't listen to you

Do you genuinely wanna know how I appreciate art?

Reyah every piece that didn't fit on the fridge

Resided in my heart

You replaced the picture of me an our first kid

With a picture of an old man I didn't know

He meant more to my children, you believed so

Where you think I'd be now without the love they show?

I'd be dead along the road, heartbroken an it wasn't because I had no place to go

It's because beat as my heart may it couldn't be something you'd actually know

The residual love, an how far it inspired me to go

I'm more than slow

I hurt more than I wished you knew

I guess that's life, I guess that's what it means to love past a tangible sense of hope

I wouldn't be here without my biggest fan

The moments I told you how much I loved you in hopes it'd stick an you'd always understand

I failed me an them countless times, I'm just a human

They won't mention how they treated you while I was doing everything thing I could

You'd lie an say I was stealing from you, as you did that time I was almost late to a interview for a job I apparently didn't deserve to get

How my subservience was more important than a Father's diligence

How you want everything from everyone else but refuse to make sense?

How many times were you uprooted from your home because I was stressed?

You don't care how unbalanced everything is, nothing matters if it doesn't bring about the revenge you sought?

If it required you to think a lot

Why try, when you can tell them I didn't do anything?

Till you understand, getting upset on it's own won't accomplish shit

I confess, I'm not alone with these problems they afflict everyone in different ways

Yet, I don't ignore how much it all weighs

I don't put less effort towards anything regardless of how little it pays

I hate when the only shred of love I see came from a paystub

Anxiety stifling my own preogression, life going on constantly

Hitting in rapid succession

I'm still here, gracious for them a blessing I'd never waste time second guessing

Just gotta accept no one cares when a man hurts, hopefully to you that looks like progression?

It's funny how life works, being labeled a jerk as you discern each unexpected preemptive lesson

They show what's ugly first, the pain they delegated begins to lessen

How feelings die, you didn't need a Smith an Wesson

You think I'm lying?

That's a funny way of being honest about how little you'd care whether or not I was trying

You almost successfully put a wedge between me an my children just lying

I know

Hope they were worth any idea we'd ever make it work, I don't need anyone that selfish to believe I didn't hurt

I know your worth wasn't something I should determine

You believe you're winning?

I'm convinced you gave up

Surface level?

You think I'd belittle my purpose to push anything the devil?

That's a sad way to let things settle

You know they feed off you right?

Those empty laughs comfort you at night?

If I fail them an die, my mind won't make time for those that begun to treat me right

To extinguish a love so far from lame, you'd have to end this miserable life

I can make it better

I'll always try, I won't quit ever

So end it while you can, if that's the plan?

It won't dilute the man I am

It'll have you sitting next to the beautiful dress that ended up in the trash can

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

An I don't give up, even when it gets rough

Understand why I never told you to shut the fuck up

You don't treat people that way, especially those you love

Just the ones that believed my importance was determined by those screaming

Why in the hell would God want me to be with someone only concerned with how much I was bleeding

I wish you had the footage, I'm fucked up in the head an it's something I wanna see

I can't expect them to see me

They expect me to me be depressed in front of a TV

Unaware of those that need me?

I don't wish to waste anyone's love

Don't bother with me, if it lapses as it gets tough

It will

Imagine being the focal point of hatred for someone that cared enough to curate hope while you learned why it was important to be still

I can't hate you, an I never will

My brain don't switch, who lost time because of me?

Where's the paper saying I'm a snitch?

I am smarter than you, if you believe the broken system they destroy our families with could accomplish shit?

Fuck being scared, you gotta let me know you're pissed

Fore I respect that shit

Keep that bitch

My self control she can't crack

Hope for my children's sake she learn how to act

Bitch ass scars from her wrath

You don't wanna see where mine at

I won't waste my role in their life just to be mad

What exists past all that trash, is their Dad

The love they show me, reminds me of my impact

How beautiful it could've been if they noticed?

The damage is irreparable, you're only bogus when anger pollutes your focus

Most don't have the mind to notice each an every detail

I know love don't exist where they hope you fail

whole moments missed sitting in jail

Move along

A understanding nowhere to be found where sensibility long gone

Serving every officer

Just another reason not to talk to her

Never supporting a bitch supporting those that profit ensuring people don't prosper

Wanna talk about what I got to offer?

If it sqeaul she think it's the real deal

If you didn't shroud yourself in their appeal

I'd care to know how you feel

Fuck a deal

It feel like a plea bargain

They can't uphold their own sentence

How the fuck that make any sense?

I'm done

The principalities an powers that be governed by people that are abhorrently dumb

Couldn't stop me if I decided to do something

Call them, if you wanna accomplish nothing?

They'll continue to condemn with every assumption

If we never say something

If only destroying the men in your life

Was an extension of your might

Your ability to fight

To do everything but actually be right

That's just your life

An whatever label you wished to stick to anyone that brought that to light

You can caress any bitch ass dude's pride

With an "alright"

Such feeble minds don't keep me up at night

I'm shook, someone told me I wasn't someone they like

How will I ever live my life?





































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