You were so good to be true I knew eventually I would fuck up an loose you.
I wish I could take back these moments where I stepped out cause I thought you did too.
I am so sorry but I know you don’t care, you don’t understand how many times ,
I’ve hurt myself because,
I let the words of others lies,
look like the truth in my eyes.
I didn’t do it intentionally,
when I felt my heart hit the floor
I’ve become so insecure,
I feel like my brain,
was swirling around & round
I’m looking at everything spin around me.
heart racing, face became flushed, heat over took my body.
my body shaking from an adrenaline rush,
I feel like they were coming for me an that’s where it came in such a rush the best thing I was to do was just run an get lost. feeling like I don’t fit in with the crowed so I can’t sit in
feeling not wanted by the person you love the most in this world. I could’ve killed myself 100x before looking at my body laying on the floor when reality hit I’m just a fuck up an it took all but a minute of listening is all it could’ve took .
I truly hate that shit.
I’ve never been so fucked up before.
I really just wanted to stop running but I couldn’t cause admitting I was fuckin wrong was kinda the problem I’m just a fuck up. communication skills they suck im trying so hard to not give up.
but every time i turn around it’s something else I’m fucking up. I wish love was easy before you walk out that door an say oh look at her she’s just a fuck up remember one thing I’ve heard it all before
but along with this bad day this sad day I will have imagine how much hurt I brought to you. As you see the tears roll down my cheeks you have to see it was all bull shit Hu I know before you cleaned out your closet an I shall 2.
because I don’t wanna be the fuck up Anymorean I don’t want to feel alone or do bad things to hurt you anymore.
please forgive me cause this comes from the heart I just want a fresh start. please forgive an don’t leave me . I need you more then you’ll ever know
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