Rage,fear,pain,screams and screeches,
Fading out, splitting, people pleasing,
Yearning for love,but getting none,

Forgotten dates, forgotten moments,
Pissed off by the present,
Doubts love when given a present,

I'm out of my head,
So lifeless,
Life seems meaningless,
I've been stripped of my real self,
Doubt! Doubt! Doubt!
Is all I think about,

I keep on taking risks,
I take leaps of faith,
I put myself at stake,
I keep on questioning,
My reality's bending,
I see the world in a blur,

There's nothing to be sure of,
I put myself on the line,
It seems I'm running out of time.
I'm out of control,
The truth's a black hole,
I'm lost in the haze
© Japheth
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