She knows this all to well and they also do.After that breakup,that fallout she's left to nurse the hurt and the pain all by herself.
Sometimes she wonders if he's also hurting like her.She just wants to scream to the whole world when in reality she just wants him to be aware of what he put her through.She wants him to know that she is hurting not because she wants him back but because she just wants to let it all out.
She feels out of control,she can't do it,the pain,the hurt is too much for her.She wishes it could all go away,she just wants to be happy and carefree again but she knows she can't,well at that point she can't.She tries so much to hate him but she just can't,she has a kind heart and nothing's going to change that.
Everyday in the company of others she puts on a smile,and sometimes even forget about her pain but when she goes home, alone,her demons find their way out.They torment her with every memory,and we are back to square one again.
She cries over and over again until she falls asleep.Thats how the cycle is and most times when she thinks she's finally made peace with her demons, she's finally forgotten about everything,it all goes down with just a single thought.
How frustrating that is,and I see her, I can feel her and she doesn't deserve it,no girl does.
But what's the need of crying everyday over spilt milk,I know crying is good,you get to let out your emotions but do we expect to make a change when we do the same things over and over again and expect a different result?
Girl,you are stronger than this,no man has to hold you back when he himself moves on and doesn't care about you.Its painful though but we have to get through this there is no other option.
You are much stronger than you think,you were okay before him, maybe even better but you will even after him.Let no man make you feel broken beyond repair.He broke your heart but you are your own woman and you get to decide if this guy is worth the cry and the pain, when in reality he doesn't,actually no one is worth it.
You get to decide who's gonna break you,mend you,inspire you...you are in control so instead of crying every single day why don't you become an artist,share your pain to the whole world,tell it to the world,unpack it all to no one in particular.
Vent it all, put it down on paper,start a blog a channel,share every bit of the pain to no one and soon you'll realize that you just needed closure,you needed to know that there are people like you out there, battling heartbreak like you,you needed to vent,to let it all out.
It doesn't change anything but it makes the weight and burden you feel bearable and overtime you'll realize that it helped and you even come to know that you can write,you can connect and maybe be the best poet,singer,the best artist there is all because of that one heartbreak.
So girl,find something to do,find an outlet of all you pain, allow yourself to feel every single emotion deeply but when you are done make sure you don't go there again.
Emerge and be great the world won't stop spinning because of you,life keeps on going and there is so much for you out there,you just have to be brave enough to make it happen.
Don't sit still,get up and embrace the change, and don't forget that I am one of you and together we'll get out of this.Love you.
© mistytouch.