I said I don't care, but here I am at 3am thinking about you.
Thinking about how things would be different, if I didn't say what I said.
if I was quite,
if I kept pretending.
Would we still be best friends now?
Or would our friendship broke because of your boyfriend?
How long would the friendship last?
Would you been even alive if I didn't end it?
How different would be this summer if I had best friend?
Its gonna be 2 months 18th July, but it still feels like week ago.
I know that the friendship wasn't good.
IT WAS TOXIC AND I KNOW
but still I can't stop blaming myself.
If I didn't wanted to be friends with that other girl so bad you didn't have to cut yourself and our friendship didn't have to break....